Friends Forever

Do u know the most dangerous relationship ever is called friendship? From ur point of view, what is the meaning of friendship? Is it the one when a person stand next to u whenever u are in trouble? Is it the one when a person cry with u when ur sad? Or is it the one who told u how ugly u look in tat dress? Or the one who told u tat u are pretty and smart? Or maybe the one who tells u tat u are the worst person ever? Or maybe, a person who bitch about u all the time? So wat is the meaning of friendship to u?

To get a perfect friend is impossible as getting a perfect man. U need to think tat sumbody is perfect tho they're not all tat u wish for. U might be fond of a person but at the same time, there must be sum things about him or her tat u hate. Maybe she talks to much, maybe she's popular than u are, maybe she's prettier, maybe she's good in things tat ur not. But the good news is ur still fwens coz at the end, these things are just a dot in ur life to make u hate the person. But finding a way to think tat its only a dot is difficult.

I wonder if there really is a perfect person in the world. Come to think of it, nahh.. its impossible. Maybe we shud just learn how to forgive and forget. So tat we cud live happily ever after. But.. Is there such thing as happily ever after?

a lil messed up..

its probably the most depressing holiday ever..but i dun blame anyone but myself..ive discovered that im not well, n im depressed, my family is not on a holiday, my bf is always gonna b bz, n my friends have amazing lives even without me..boohoo!~ my confidence level has gone below low..so i dun go out..like at all..seriously..i joined a female-only gym..but i cant even gather the strength to go..yes, im sad..pathetic actually..but i dunno..mayb ive accepted the fact that my life is never gonna be the same..i have a happy family, but everyone is chasing their own paths..i have a great bf but i seem to chase him away every chance i get..i have wonderful friends but i cant even gather the strength to be around them coz im afraid id spread my sadness..blurgh..ok, NOW im pathetic..mayb im sad..certain people have said certain things, certain people have done certain things..n ive put it aside for so long, due to exams, or work, or wtv..n now, its all hitting me..so its all mixed up in one feeling..so i burst..but being how i am..i do it alone..n i only do it in disguise of a sad scene of a movie, of a song, or wtv that is the least bit sad..mayb im scared..im afraid that i might get hurt, again? im allowed to be a lil paranoid ok, considering all that ive been thru..(need not be revealed)..ok, i really dunno..n i dunno what this post is about either..huhuhuh..or mayb..im just tired of taking care of others? ok, seriously, i dont know..

random stuff..

omggggg..br abis 3 papers n i dh gila down..:( cant wait for min to come back..cpat minnnn..:( ji's bday was great.. havent seen her n jules for ages.. finally! hehehe.. that was a relief.. anyway, cant wait for the holidays..im gonna do a lot of cleaning n exercise!!! i nak kurussssss.. i dun care.. i hate being fat.. :( went out with ned td.. a very very belated bday celebration.. i cant believe i forgot her bday.. im very bad with dates.. pls remind me of ur bday yea? hhuhuuhu.. love lots..

Life is such a bitch

Hi and Bye

Say goodbye to holidays and welcome back late night coffee and work. So much work yet so little time. :(

p/s: leez. ur open house this saturday i try to datang k!

Raya Happiness

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf zahir batin

It wasnt tat bad celebrating eid away from home. At least not for me. My celebration was awesome. Not to mentioned i met alot of ppl. Malaysians and Singaporeans. Malays, indian and chinese. It was much more than i have expected. I was a bit sad at first knowing tat i cudnt do the traditional way of hari raya wit my family. Wake up in the morning, go to the mosque to pray, eat raya breakfast complete wit ketupat, lemang and rendang cooked my mom, the time we haf to sit and ask for forgiveness from each other, the duit raya, the raya photos and the balik kampung part. I pity my mom tho. Everybody wasnt around tis year. Im celebrating at Brisbane, my brother is away in Japan and my sister is in Ipoh while my dad is in Sarawak [but of coz he went home for the first day of raya. my grandparents died last year and middle of tis year.]. I missed my grandma on my mom's side tho. The feeling we haf for raya every year. Its just so wonderful.

Here in brisbane, i managed to learn how to cook rendang. It was so inconvenience. I had to stay in the kitchen for 6 hours took cook the rendang. Plus, we dun haf stove like we do back home. Everything is using electricity. It took double the time to cook. But it was fun.

Just tat i wish everybody i love wud be here by my side ;(

Welcome to Lala Land

hey babes! Finally im here :p hugs! Muahx!! :D

Hari Raya

Should have updated the blog a long time ago. I was busy with work, submission and group assignments. *sigh*

Well, its september 26th. and im here to wish u guys Selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin. sorry for the things ive done wrong. :P k babes. till then. later.

Suprise!

I just got back from a suprise party. A friend of mine threw one for her sister. The cake were awesome [2 cakes]. Anybody wanna throw a suprise for me? haha

Sweet September?

hey sygs..damn i miss u guys..been so long since we last contacted each other..anyhow..i think this blog is a great idea..:)..

i didnt know about ji's 'kes ragut'! will be waiting for that post..

come september, i should be ecstatic..but sadly im not..it was my 21st bday on the 9th..but i dont know why, i just didnt feel like celebrating..:'( it's sad coz it's the bday ive been waiting for since forever.. being 21 should mean something to a girl like me..huhuhu.. plus..min is far away, so is eeka..n plus i have soooo much work..stupid assignments..seriously, its like they just want us to copy and paste the whole book..grrrrr..! and testss..come on, u just taught us the topic, then suddenly we have a test..give us a break..then the never-ending replacement classes..u had ur chance, u had ur slot, u missed it, forget it then..but nooooo, there MUST be a replacement class..grrrrr..!~ well too bad, the class will only be half-full..

this semester is really tough for me..and it doesnt help when i have a project paper partner who barely does any research and keeps lying to meeeeeeee! ok, im soooo stressed out by her..i dedicate this blog to her..we havent been meeting up as often as we should to work on the paper..so we decided to meet up today.. she told me she is busy till about 2, so we agreed that she's come over at 2..so i settled everything in the morning..come 2 oclock, i was already waiting on my bed..then i feel asleep..i woke up at 3, she was not here yet, so i texted her..she said she was still in the meeting..i was really pissed..but i waited..then it was 330..i told her i cant be too long coz i gotta go to kajang with my family later..she didnt reply..i waited till 430!!!!!! i was damn angryyyyy..so i texted her, 'if tak jadi pun, at least tell me la.. i waited for u since 2 kot!'
she only replied at 5..she said she was finalizing the presentation and if i had to go mayb we should just meet up tomorrow..so i said, 'that info wouldve been uselful 3 hours ago!'...

grrrrrrrrrr..! it's bad enough that im stressed out in class, i do not need anything else to add to my misery ok..i have to maintain my results if i want to keep my scholarship..waaaa..! im sooo scared..it's my last year too.. my future is creeping up on me.. n im so confused..

ok2, i gtg get ready to break my fast..muahx!

Thoughts That Count

If u ever had to choose between the one u love or ur own life, which wud it be? I always wonder which wud be the most important. The thing is, if u chose sumbody else, wud tat sumbody choose u over anything else? People always say tat life is not fair. But sumtimes, i figured, life is not fair on certain people. Some haf watever they wanted to in life. Love, Money, Education, Happiness, etc. So wat is the term 'fair' means?

I noticed tat sum ppl just like to shit on others. Is it becoz they're just jelous? Or maybe the other one is just plain stupid? Well, come to think of it, we are all the same. We haf the same desire. Just tat most ppl tend to keep it or probably tend to control it but others cudnt. Who doesnt like money? I think those ppl who said 'i hate being rich' is full of shit. Who doesnt like to be love or be in love? Those who think they cannot love or sick of love is also, full of shit. U haf the tendency to want it but u keep it just to look cool or okay or tat ur normal. I think these ppl are not good ppl. They're not honest. If u cant be honest wit urself, the risk of u not being honest wit anybody else is very high.

Well, too bad. The world is full wit these ppl now. In fact, im probably one of them too. Geez, i hope i cud break free now. Except tat, im afraid of the consequences. I dun think im strong enough to be free.

Lights

Lights- Drive My Soul

Seems somebody put out the moon
Now the road is a minefield
I can’t follow the way she moves
I can’t see past the shadows
You make the darkness disappear
I feel found when you stay near
I know where I am when you are here
My way becomes so clear

When you’re gone
Will I lose control?
You’re the only road I know
You show me where to go
Who will drive my soul?

Seems somebody burned out the signs
I can’t expect the hard curves
There’s no borders
There are no lines
How can I know where to turn?
You make the street lights reappear
I feel bright when you stand near
I know what I am when you are here
My place becomes so clear

When you’re gone
Will I lose control?
You’re the only road I know
You show me where to go
Who will drive my soul?

Will I lose control?
You’re the only road that I know
You show me where to go
Who will drive my sooooul? ooouulll
Drive my soul, oouulll

When you’re gone
Will I lose control?
You’re the only road I know
You show me where to go
When you’re gone
Will I lose control?
You’re the only road I know
You show me where to go
Who will drive my soul?


*curent addict-sept, 12,08

September bloody september

September....

The Green day's song always comes to my mind when September was mentioned. It starts with the bad news from my very own year leader. "You're not registered for the working drawing class", she said. Means I have extra subject to take for my final semester. Sigh.

Then, the news about a friend leaving. Make it 3. Three of my closest boy friends leaving to Uk. Sigh again.

Shah- 14th Septmber 08
Yus- Most probably 15th September 08
Adam- After his visa's approval. *soon*

:(

Had a farewell Pre-supper for Omar last weekend. It was nice. Meeting up with the cousins. Catching up and updating each other with their "xoxo". That was on Saturday, the very next day. We had to sent him off to Uk. Again.....sigh. :(

Omar's leaving for wales

and oh....jiha told me about the 'kes ragut' she was in last week. For further info, read ms. gee's post. :)
p/s: Let it out babe. let it out. :P

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